Tip for Day 2 of 21 Days of Free Distance Reiki
Do you trust your body, your system, yourself?
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There are so many people I know with long histories and large barriers to trust: clients, friends, people in my communities and, most especially, myself.
As a Korean adoptee surrendered immediately after birth, my first experience in this world was a primal wound—the loss of my mother. For the first three months of my life, I was in foster care in Busan waiting to be flown to Detroit, Michigan where my family would meet me.
And, in those first three months of my life, I learned what it meant to be abandoned and alone. The foster mother wrote a letter to my mom saying my cries were “sonorous, like a bell.”
Yes, sonorous, like a bell that kept on ringing, left to make its own music, unattended to, knowing there was no one who would come to offer comfort and safety.
As I grew up, I could not allow myself to cry. I still cannot allow myself to cry in front of another person—the fear of trust runs so deep.
I learned to shutdown and dissociate from my body, to not feel it, to only honor the thinking and mental systems, and to continuously abandon myself in relationships with older women I thought I could make love me.
Learning how to trust my body, my system, and my very self has been the focus of my work and research the past four years, and it will probably be work for me for the rest of my life. . .
Reiki has been an incredible teacher for me. My Reiki Master and Teacher, Stacey Butcher, says to trust Reiki. It knows where to go. Even if we don’t feel any physical sensations in our bodies, the energy is moving for the highest good, so trust it. She says that once we’ve been attuned to the Reiki, it’s there in our system, and we can call upon it, and it will be there, so trust ourselves.
And, I have found this to be true. Even if I feel some doubt or stirrings of mistrust, when I ground and center myself in the Reiki, it is there, even if time has passed, even when in other parts of my daily life I haven’t been connecting to the life force—mine or anyone else’s—when I open the channel, it comes through. It has been powerful and healing to me to have a relationship (one of many now) in which I can trust myself, my body, and the entire system in which we all belong!
